“I just dropped out of nowhere,” Sam Shepard said of his
arrival in New York, at nineteen, in the fall of 1963.
“It was absolute luck that I happened to be there when
the whole Off-Off Broadway movement was starting.”
Shepard, a refugee from his father’s farm in California,
had spent eight months as an actor travelling the
country by bus with a Christian theatre troupe, the
Bishop’s Company Repertory Players. Acting had been his
ticket to ride; he’d been so scared at his Bishop’s
Company audition that he’d recited the stage directions.
“I think they hired everybody,” he said. Once he’d taken
up residence in Manhattan - “It was wide open,” Shepard
said. “You were like a kid in a fun park” - he proceeded
to knock around the city, “trying to be an actor,
writer, musician, whatever happened.” He had no
connections, no money (he sold his blood to buy a
cheeseburger), and nothing to fall back on but his
lanky, taciturn Western charisma. He did, however, have
renegade credentials and a store of arcane knowledge: he
had been a 4-H Club member, a sheepshearer, a racecourse
hot walker, a herdsman, an orange picker, and a
junior-college student.
Shepard was homespun and handsome, with a strong jaw and
a dimpled chin. He exuded the mystery and swagger of a
movie star, which he would eventually become. (In
addition to writing four dozen or so plays - the latest
of which, “Ages of the Moon,” opened last week, at the
Atlantic Theatre Company - Shepard, who is now
sixty-six, has appeared in some forty films; he was
nominated for an Oscar for his performance as the test
pilot Chuck Yeager, in “The Right Stuff.”) But even as a
new arrival in the city he seemed instinctively to
understand the importance of image. “Use yer eyes like a
weapon. Not defensive. Offensive,” a character in his
play “The Tooth of Crime” (1972) says, adding, “You can
paralyze a mark with a good set of eyes.” Shepard had
such a pair. His almond-shaped blue eyes looked out at
the world with wry detachment; they imposed on his
passionate nature a mask of cool. His smile was
tight-lipped - half knowing, half strategic (it hid a
mouthful of craggy teeth). Years of living with invasive
family aggression - “The male influences around me were
primarily alcoholics and extremely violent,” he said -
had taught Shepard to play things close to his chest: to
look and to listen. “I listened like an animal. My
listening was afraid,” Wesley, the son in Shepard’s 1978
play “Curse of the Starving Class,” says, describing his
method for coping with his drunken father. Shepard was a
man of few words, many of them mumbled. Compelling to
look at but hard to read -at once intellectually savvy
and emotionally guarded - he exuded the solitude and the
vagueness of the American West.
Though Shepard lacked East Coast sophistication - he was
poorly read in those days - he brought news of what he
called “the whacked out corridors of broken-off
America”: its blue highways, its wilderness, its
wasteland, its animal kingdom, its haunted lost souls,
its violence. “People want a street angel. They want a
saint with a cowboy mouth,” a prescient character in one
of Shepard’s early one-acts said. Shepard, it turned
out, was the answer to those prayers. He got a job
busing tables at the Village Gate, and began to write in
earnest. “I had a sense that a voice existed that needed
expression, that there was a voice that wasn’t being
voiced,” he said. “There were so many voices that I
didn’t know where to start. I felt kind of like a weird
stenographer. . . . There were definitely things there,
and I was just putting them down. I was fascinated by
how they structured themselves.” Ralph Cook, the Village
Gate’s headwaiter, who was a former bit-part actor in
Hollywood Westerns and a fellow-Californian, provided
him an entry into the downtown scene through a new space
he was starting on the Bowery - Theatre Genesis - where
Shepard made his playwriting début, in 1964. By the
following year, the twenty-two-year-old Samuel Shepard
Rogers VII, who was known as Steve to his family and
friends, had reinvented himself as Sam Shepard, whom the
Times described as “the generally acknowledged ‘genius’
” of the Off-Off-Broadway circuit.
Shepard’s early plays, written between 1964 and 1971,
were full of surprises and assaults on the senses -
people spoke from bathtubs or painted one another,
colored Ping-Pong balls dropped from the ceiling, a
chicken was sacrificed onstage. The plays express what
Shepard called the “despair and hope” of the sixties;
they act out both the spiritual dislocation and the
protean survival instinct of traumatic times. Better
than anyone else writing in that fractious hubbub,
Shepard defined the fault lines between youth culture
and the mainstream. “You were so close to the people who
were going to the plays, there was really no difference
between you and them,” he said, pinpointing both his
work’s value and its limitation. The mockery, the
role-playing, the apocalyptic fears, the hunger for new
mythologies, and the physical transformations in his
work gave shape to the spiritual strangulation of the
decade - which, in Shepard’s words, “sucked dogs.” “For
me, there was nothing fun about the sixties,” he said.
“Terrible suffering. . . . Things coming apart at the
seams.”
In their verbal and visual daring, Shepard’s early plays
aspired to match the anarchic wallop of rock and roll.
He had been playing drums since the age of twelve, when
his father, a semi-professional Dixieland drummer,
bought him a secondhand set and taught him how to play.
(He continued drumming into his adulthood, with such
bands as the Holy Modal Rounders and T Bone Burnett’s
Void.) In his writing, he gravitated toward rock’s
maverick energy; he listed Little Richard among his
literary influences, along with Jackson Pollock and
Cajun fiddles. (Later, he befriended Keith Richard,
lived briefly with Patti Smith - “He was a renegade with
nasty habits / he was a screech owl / he was a man
playing cowboys,” she wrote of him - chronicled Bob
Dylan’s Rolling Thunder Revue, and co-wrote, with Dylan,
the eleven-minute song “Brownsville Girl.”) In plays as
varied as “The Tooth of Crime,” “Forensic & the
Navigators” (1967), and “Operation Sidewinder” (1970),
music and song are a crucial part of Shepard’s dramatic
attack. Of these plays, “The Tooth of Crime,” which
involves a style war between an old rock king, Hoss, and
his upstart challenger, Crow, is the most visionary
work. Here Shepard carried the language of drugs, rock,
and political struggle from the street to the stage:
CROW: So ya’ wanna be a rocker.
Study the moves. Jerry Lee Lewis. Buy some blue
suede shoes. Move yer head like Rod Stewart. Put yer
ass in a grind. Talkin’ sock it to it, get the image
in line. Get the image in line boy. The fantasy
rhyme. It’s all over the streets and you can’t buy
the time. You can’t buy the bebop. You can’t buy the
slide. Got the fantasy blues and no place to hide.
Rhythm led Shepard to character.
“When you write a play, you work out like a musician on
a piece of music,” he wrote. “You find all the rhythms
and the melody and the harmonies and take them as they
come.” His early plays, which he refers to now as
“cavorting,” were riffs, written at speed - wild,
energized, and slipshod - following the rhythmic
strategy of his drumming. “Break it all down in pairs.
Make the pairs work together, with each other. Then make
’em work against each other, independent,” he wrote in
his 1969 play “The Holy Ghostly.” His pieces were
abstract flights of illuminated feeling, like the work
of the jazz greats - Thelonious Monk, Dizzy Gillespie,
Gerry Mulligan, Nina Simone - he heard at the Village
Gate, more vectors of energy than maps of psychology. “I
preferred a character that was constantly
unidentifiable,” Shepard said. As he explained in his
note to the actors in “Angel City” (1976), instead of
embodying a “whole character” the actor should consider
his performance “a fractured whole with bits and pieces
of character flying off the central theme,” and aim “to
make a kind of music or painting in space without having
to feel the need to completely answer intellectually for
the character’s behavior.” In those years, by his own
admission, Shepard was “dead set against revisions
because I couldn’t stand rewriting.” For him and for his
downtown audience, the plays were exercises in
spontaneity and emotional discovery. “They were chants,
they were incantations, they were spells,” he said in
“Stalking Himself,” a 1998 PBS documentary. “You get on
them and you go.”
Shepard’s talent soon attracted a wide range of
interest; he found himself collaborating on movies with
Robert Frank and Michelangelo Antonioni, and on theatre
pieces with Joseph Chaikin’s experimental Open Theatre.
Despite his disdain for the uptown theatre scene, his
increasingly ambitious plays required larger casts,
bigger budgets, better production values, and greater
narrative finesse than his downtown habitat encouraged.
“As far as I’m concerned, Broadway just does not exist,”
Shepard told Playboy in 1970. Nonetheless, the same
year, in a move that in Off-Off Broadway circles was the
equivalent of Dylan going electric, Shepard transitioned
above Fourteenth Street to Lincoln Center, with
“Operation Sidewinder,” a picaresque apocalyptic fable
about political oppression, told in a cool pop style,
which required, among other things, a seven-foot snake,
the performance of a Hopi ritual, a ’57 Chevy, and a
rock band. “I am whipped, I am chained. I am prisoner to
all your oppression. I am depressed, deranged,
decapitated, dehumanized, defoliated, demented and
damned! I can’t get out,” the play’s hero says, using
the snake as a tourniquet to shoot up. (Shepard himself
was no stranger to heroin in those years.)
As the literary manager of Lincoln Center at the time, I
was responsible for bringing Shepard uptown. The year
before, he had married O-Lan Johnson, an actress who had
appeared in “Forensic & the Navigators.” When the two of
them came to Lincoln Center for the first preview, the
bartender tried to shoo us all out of the lobby because
we looked too scruffy. As I noted in my diary,
communication between cultures soon turned into a
collision:
The show goes well for the first
act. At the intermission Sam is nervous, obviously
disgruntled. “Don’t you think it’s too smooth?”
Talking about the audience he says, “I’m not worried
about the old people, I’m worried about the young
ones.” . . .
At the theatre - Sam looking gloomy before the show,
goes to the bar and sneaks a beer in under his
shirt. The audience is tough. They laugh at the Hopi
dance scene. . . . On the way out, one girl said,
“Do you think he’s serious?”
Afterward, I was shown responses from
the bewildered Lincoln Center subscription audience:
“Terrible, terrible, terrible,” “The artistic director
and anyone connected should be fired.” The play was
better received by the critics, who dubbed it “possibly
significant” (the Times) and “the wildest and most
ambitious show yet at Lincoln Center” (NBC). But, not
long afterward, to get off the Village streets and off
drugs, Shepard moved to London with his wife and their
young son, Jesse Mojo. From leafy Hampstead, he raced
greyhounds, wrote plays, and took stock of the homeland
from which he felt alienated. “I wanted to get out of
the insanity,” he told Matthew Roudané, in his interview
“Shepard on Shepard.” “Of course I was also running away
from myself!”
After returning to the United States, in 1974, however,
Shepard made facing himself and his emotional
inheritance the central project of his adulthood. The
quartet of major plays that he produced between 1978 and
1985 - “Curse of the Starving Class,” the Pulitzer
Prizewinning “Buried Child” (1978), “True West” (1980),
and “A Lie of the Mind” (1985) - are not traditional
psychological dramas. “Plays have to go beyond just
‘working out problems,’ ” he said. They are
quasi-naturalistic meditations, in keeping with his plan
to move “from colloquial territory” to “poetic country.”
But they drew on the deepest recesses of Shepard’s
emotional memory.
“Seven Plays,” the collection in which three of the four
plays appear, is dedicated “For my father, Sam,” to whom
Shepard owed a large part of his identity, his damage,
and his subject matter. “Sometimes in someone’s gestures
you can notice how a parent is somehow inhabiting that
person without there being any awareness of that,”
Shepard told Rolling Stone. “Sometimes you can look at
your hand and see your father.” Shepard could see Sam
Rogers in his own fierce eyes, his infatuation with
solitude, his bouts of alcoholism, his ornery
single-mindedness, his short fuse, and, especially, his
reckless Western machismo. “I’ve been involved in many
dangerous foolish things,” Shepard said in “Stalking
Himself.” “I’ve been upside down under falling horses at
a full gallop. I’ve been fired upon by a 12-gauge Ithaca
Over-and-Under. I’ve rolled in a 1949 Plymouth coupe.”
Shepard sees himself as a “victim” of his father’s
tough-guy persona. “My old man tried to force on me a
notion of what it was to be a ‘man,’ ” he said. “And it
destroyed my dad.”
As a child, amid the violence of his family, Shepard,
who has spoken of “tremendous morning despair,” was
something of a sleepwalker. He grew up feeling as if he
were living “on Mars”; “I feel like I’ve never had a
home,” he said. “Sometimes I just stand outside and
watch my family moving around inside the house,” he
wrote in his 1982 memoir, “Motel Chronicles.” “I stand
there a long time sometimes. They don’t know that I
watch them.” Playwriting called those indigestible
family experiences out of him. Shepard’s dramatic world
is peopled with derelict, disappointed somnambulists:
Tilden, the “burned out and displaced” son in “Buried
Child,” who returns to his family after a twenty-year
exile in Mexico; Weston, the quixotic drunken father in
“Curse of the Starving Class”; Lee, the feral thief, who
wanders out of the desert in “True West.” Taken
together, these unmoored souls form a kind of tribe of
the living dead, deracinated men trying to escape a
sense of shame that they only vaguely understand. They
recede from family, from society, and, through drink,
from themselves. All these figures are fragments of
Shepard’s father, a Second World War bomber pilot and
high-school teacher, who moved the family (Shepard has
two younger sisters, Roxanne, an actress, and Sandy, a
singer-songwriter, who composed the songs for Robert
Altman’s film version of Shepard’s 1983 play “Fool for
Love”) from Illinois, where Shepard was born, to an
avocado ranch in Duarte, California, and who spent his
last years alone in the desert because he didn’t “fit
with people.”
“My dad had a lot of bad luck,” Shepard said in Don
Shewey’s 1985 biography “Sam Shepard.” “You could see
his suffering, his terrible suffering, living a life
that was disappointing and looking for another one.” Sam
Rogers’s family history is retold in detail by Pop, the
main character in “The Holy Ghostly.” “Me, I never got
no real breaks,” Pop begins. “My old man was a dairy
farmer. Started hittin’ the bottle and lost the whole
farm. Things started goin’ down hill from that point
on.” Shepard attributes part of his father’s downfall to
postwar trauma. “My dad came from an extremely rural
farm community . . . and the next thing he knows he’s
flying B-24s over the South Pacific, over Romania,
dropping bombs and killing people he couldn’t even see,”
he said. “These men returned from this heroic victory .
. . and were devastated in some basic way . . . that’s
mysterious still. . . . The medicine was booze.” The
booze often led to abuse. “Those Midwestern women of the
forties suffered an incredible psychological assault,”
Shepard recalled. “While growing up, I saw that assault
over and over again, and not only in my own family.” In
1984, Rogers was hit by a car, after a drunken quarrel
with a girlfriend in a New Mexico bar. “You either die
like a dog or you die like a man. And if you die like a
dog you just go back to dust,” Shepard, who had his
father cremated, said later. After the ceremony, Shepard
picked up the leather container holding the ashes. “It
was so heavy,” he said. “You wouldn’t think the ashes of
a man would be so heavy.”
“Let’s leave the old man out of it,” Austin, the
successful screenwriter in “True West,” says to his
brother, Lee, of their father, who lives in abject
isolation in the desert. But, for Shepard and for his
characters, there is no escaping the father. “He put
stuff into me that’ll never go away,” a character
complains of her father in “A Lie of the Mind.” (A New
Group production of this play, directed by Ethan Hawke,
will open in February.) Likewise, Wesley, in “Starving
Class,” describes his father’s psychic imperialism:
“Part of him was growing on me. I could feel him taking
over me. I could feel myself retreating.” Shepard’s
legion of feral male characters keeps alive aspects of
the toxic Sam Rogers. “He was a . . . maniac, but in a
quiet way,” Shepard said.
Shepard’s early success made him an object of envy to
his floundering father; it also made his father an
object of guilt to him. In “The Holy Ghostly,” Pop’s
childish demands for allegiance from his son (who has
changed his name to Ice) come with a jealous attack on
his achievements. “Don’t go givin’ me none a’ yer high
falootin’ esoteric gobbledy gook, Buster Brown,” Pop
says. “Just ’cause ya’ struck off fer the big city on
yer own and made a big splash . . . don’t mean ya’ can
humiliate an old man.” From the stage, Shepard broadcast
his fierce refusal to regret his decisions. “For
eighteen years I was your slave,” Ice says. “I worked
for you hand and foot. Shearing the sheep, irrigating
the trees, listening to your bullshit about ‘improve
your mind, you’ll never get ahead, learn how to lose,
hard work and guts and never say die,’ and now I suppose
you want me to bring you back to life. You pathetic
creep. Hire yourself a professional mourner, Jim. I’m
splitting.” In the third act of “The Late Henry Moss”
(2000), a dead father comes back from the grave to
berate his son, Earl, for not having saved him from a
squalid exile and from his self-destructiveness:
HENRY: You coulda stopped me but
you didn’t.
EARL: I couldn’t. I—I—I—was scared. I
was—just—too—scared.
HENRY: You were scared! A what? A me? You were
scared of a dead man?
Shepard’s quartet of family plays is
an act of both reunion and resolution. “I’m not doing
this in order to vent demons,” he said. “I want to shake
hands with them.” The subject called out of him an
unprecedented degree of urgency and eloquence. A wife
brain-damaged by her husband’s jealous violence (“A Lie
of the Mind”); the corpse of a murdered child exhumed
(“Buried Child”); a mother’s home trashed by her sons
(“True West”); warring parents trying to sell the family
home out from under each other (“Starving Class”) - the
plays are allegories of mutilated love, bearing superb
witness to Shepard’s violent memories. Told in a more
textured, complex narrative style than his early work -
Shepard’s association with Joseph Chaikin had taught him
the virtues of rewriting - the plays resound with
bewilderment at the absence of familial normality:
“What’s happened to this family?” (“Buried Child”),
“What kind of family is this?” (“Starving Class”). The
refrigerator in “Starving Class” - it’s either empty or
stuffed with inappropriate food by the boozy Weston -
becomes a symbol of the fiasco of nurture. “You couldn’t
be all that starving!” Weston bellows. “We’re not that
bad off, goddamnit!”
The impoverishment is psychological, the crime
pathological carelessness. In “True West,” the mother
returns home to find her sons strangling each other and
her house torn apart. Coolly surveying the mess, she
says to one son, “You’re not killing him, are you?”
before decamping to a motel. In “Starving Class,” Weston
breaks down the kitchen door; his wife, Ella, boils the
chicken that her daughter has painstakingly raised for a
4-H demonstration; and the son, Wesley, urinates on his
sister’s presentation. Love is unavailable; hatred is
the only form of intimacy. The perversity of family
combat is brought together in a brilliant final image,
as mother and son try to recall Weston’s story of an
eagle that carried off a cat in its talons:
ELLA: That cat’s tearing his
chest out, and the eagle’s trying to drop him, but
the cat won’t let go because he know if he falls
he’ll die.
WESLEY: And the eagle’s being torn apart in midair.
. . .
ELLA: And they come crashing down to the earth. Both
of them come crashing down. Like one whole thing.
Like planets in their own orbits,
Shepard’s family members revolve around one another
without ever intersecting. In “Starving Class,” Weston
remarks on the circle of solitude that his father
inhabited. “He lived apart,” he says. “Right in the
midst of things and he lived apart.” In “Buried Child,”
the atmosphere of disconnection is remarked upon by a
young visitor, who has “the feeling that nobody lives
here but me. . . . You’re here but it doesn’t seem like
you’re supposed to be.” (“What a bunch of bullshit this
is!” Sam Rogers said, drunk and disorderly at the Greer
Garson Theatre in New Mexico, where he saw the play.
“The ushers tried to throw him out,” Shepard told The
Paris Review. “He resisted, and in the end they allowed
him to stay because he was the father of the
playwright.”)
Shepard’s characters are not so much warped as unborn;
clueless and rudderless, they can’t find their way. In
“Starving Class,” Weston explains to his son that he is
unable to navigate his own life: “I couldn’t figure out
the jumps. From being born, to growing up, to droppin’
bombs, to having kids, to hittin’ bars, to this. It all
turned on me somehow.” Like so many of Shepard’s
derailed men, Weston has killed off his empathetic,
female side. In the finale of “True West,” the brothers,
sensitive writer and reckless thief, square off against
each other, the two sides of Shepard’s own divided
personality. “You know in yourself that the female part
of oneself as a man is, for the most part, battered and
beaten up and kicked to shit just like some women in
relationships,” Shepard said. In “A Lie of the Mind,”
Jake, who has beaten his wife so badly that he thinks
he’s killed her, says that it’s “like my whole life is
lost from losing her. Gone. That I’ll die like this.
Lost.” When he does finally make contact with his
brain-damaged wife, he kisses her, then surrenders her
to the affections of his gentler other self - his
brother, Frankie.
Taken together, these four plays constitute a sort of
empire of the damned, whose inhabitants are caught in
desperate but impossible retreat from their legacy of
self-destruction. “It always comes. Repeats itself. . .
. Even when you try to change it,” Ella says, in
“Starving Class.” “It goes back and back to tiny little
cells and genes. . . . We inherit it and pass it down,
and then pass it down again.” “Character is something
that can’t be helped,” Shepard said. “It’s like destiny.
. . . It can be covered up, it can be messed with, it
can be screwed around with, but it can’t be ultimately
changed. It’s like the structure of our bones, and the
blood that runs through our veins.” His characters are
doomed by their unconscious, which they can’t or won’t
examine. In fact, they’ll do anything for an unexamined
life.
“Theatre is a place to bring stuff from your life
experience,” Shepard said in the PBS documentary. “You
send this telegram, and then you get out.” Since his
career as a screen actor took off, in the eighties, he
has written fewer plays, and the results have been
uneven. “I’ve never been able to write a play while I’ve
been acting in a film,” he told Rolling Stone. “You get
enraptured for a long time . . . and it’s difficult to
do that in an actor’s trailer.” The message inside the
bright comic envelope of Shepard’s new play, “Ages of
the Moon,” is one of heartbreak.
In “Fool for Love,” Shepard
examined the turmoil of his exit from his fifteen-year
marriage to O-lan. In his last play, “Kicking a Dead
Horse” (2007), a Beckett-influenced monologue, the
narrator, Hobart Struther, standing in the desert beside
his dead horse, delivers a litany of his losses: his
horse, his youth, his authenticity, and, perhaps
imminently, his wife:
She was amazing to me. She was.
Was?
Is. Still. But then—
In the past?
Yes. In the past. She was beyond belief. I thought
I’d died and gone to heaven.
In “Ages of the Moon,” that loss has
been accomplished. Ernest Tubb’s “Have You Ever Been
Lonely” plays as the show begins; after the lines “How
can I go on living / Now that we’re apart,” the lights
come up on two codgers drinking on the porch of a
Kentucky-style brick country house. “Here’s the really
sour part of the whole deal,” Ames (the expert Stephen
Rea), who cuts a comic figure in suspenders, short khaki
work pants, and black-and-white wingtips with no socks,
says in the play’s first line. “She discovers this note
- this note from this girl, which to this day I cannot
for the life of me remember. . . . I swear, some girl I
would never in a million years have ever returned to for
even a minor blow-job.” Byron (Seán McGinley), his old
friend, who has come to console Ames for the breakup of
his marriage, replies, “Minor?”
Under the direction of Jimmy Fay, “Ages of the Moon” has
the loose banter and percussive rhythms of Shepard’s
early plays - it even has an eleven-o’clock “aria” - but
the evening has more splash than sizzle; nonetheless,
since Shepard is a cunning craftsman, the play’s charm
is insinuating. Ames and Byron are intended as clowns of
inconsolability, a kind of country-and-Western Vladimir
and Estragon. They drink; they argue; they fight; they
pass the time from midday to midnight waiting for an
eclipse of the moon. Twice during the evening, Byron
calls Ames “hopeless”; the word evokes his marriage. “I
can’t ever go back now,” Ames says. “I know. I can see
it. The writing’s on the wall.”
The play is slight; the weight of its sorrow is not.
Shepard leaves his characters gazing poignantly into the
gloaming. “Sliver of moonlight fades to black,” the
stage direction reads. As Ernest Tubb’s bright voice
sings them into shadow—“When you look at me with those
stars in your eyes / I could waltz across Texas with
you” - the men sit, drinks in hand, staring into space.
The falling darkness plays as the declivity of Shepard’s
life and love. “I hate endings,” he once said. “Just
detest them. Beginnings are definitely the most
exciting, middles are perplexing, and endings are a
disaster.” ?
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